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I don't even know what I should feel right now .. Maybe like an earthquake .. but in your heart ..Where your foundation ..your ground lies ..So where should you place your heart when it crumbles entirely ..I dont even wanna begin to think..

Barter System

My funny hong kong friend made an agreement with me. So outrageous that I will never consider accepting.. ..until ...

Hongkong Friend: ''Hey, tomorrow Ive got to wake up early to go on my vacation trip, since you're studying until 6.a.m., can you wake me up at 5.30am?''

Me: "emm tonight I might be sleeping early, around 4am probably, because i'm going for badminton at 9am"

Hongkong Friend: ''Well lets make it this way, you wake me up, I'll give you 4 kiwis''

Me: "What!?! *with a disbelieve expression*

Hongkong Friend: ''Plus another 6 eggs''

Me: "DEal!!"

Then when i came back to my room.. these were at my door.

And he said he will owe me the eggs =.= these eggs are mine! (for illustration purposes)

And then he later came in my room holding a stack of dirty dishes. Saying "I'll throw in another bar of Yorkie(a chocolate bar) if you wash these for me.

He is now pushing his luck too far! ... NOH WAY!!!

This is the cheeky fella! not as decent as he looks!

Snatched

There's a common 'strategy' used by a category of people.
The category that indirectly asks for money from you.
You see them at not so busy streets, sometimes at slightly busy streets as well, outside restaurants, parks, car parks but not in the heart of the city though, because they need your attention.
The phrase goes like this :
"Hiya mate~ do you have 40p to spare? I need to make an emergency phone call but ive got not enough change''

More or less like that. Most people would just go ''sorry, no'' because we already know.
1st day of orientation, we were already enlightened and warned by the uni coordinators about this.

TODAY
As I was walking out of the entrance, there was a number of people surrounding this frustrated man. He was so frustrated and angered his voice was shaking. My nature of being curious, I slowed down to eavesdrop ..to catch these words ..''He was asking for change, but I havent got any, so I borrowed my phone to him and he ran off with it ..''
I looked at that man and his eyes were all red ..looking very anxious, like his day couldn't get worse ..until just.
Whats more saddening was ..he was limping ..
A thief stole a phone from a limp, and from his outfit, he doesn't seem well off. sigh.
You had a bad day.

Slaaaaaaaaaaack

exams in a month! ...Im THRILLED!! ..if you can sense the sarcasm in my words, Who wouldn't be thrilled for exams xD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sure everyone lovesss battling off with the books ..scattered notes and frizzy hand writing all over your paper! .........

Its the time of the year again . tuck in your shirt ..tighten your pants , and pick up your pen and paper. .........

Im so enjoying this =.= ..

Thoughts and foreign feelings

Thoughts can really amplify a situation. Like an expanding spiral digging downwards and outwards not knowing when it will stop. Happy thoughts? I don't mind.

Emotional and sad thoughts on the other hand, are not easy to control. It burdens the brain and put you in a state of grief to no end. Here on, you seek consolation, if there's any at all, by spilling your heart out to whoever listening. Then all you need to hear is, "it's gonna be alright" and your spiral slowly comes to a halt.

I never wanted to look weak. In the past, if there were any occasions that were bad enough to get my thoughts spun, I will dwell on it no doubt, but then recuperate from it faster than how it happened.
Slowly as I grow older, the dwellings became less and less. If there are any complications, deal with it practically, rather than crying out loud on why did it happen. Maybe because I feel contented and rather look at things in a simpler way, think less complicatedly, and pursue no drama. Maybe thats part of being an adult, you become stoner by day.

I THINK there exist some people who would deliberately put themself in the emotional state of grief. I'm not sure if its true, but I think a different feeling exists simultaneously while you feel your heart clench tightly because of sadness. I know about the crying nerve related to the laughing nerve that both serves to alleviate your stress level, but this is different. That foreign feeling, as far as I remember, feels like a sense of relieve, threading that sadness out of your heart. That PROCESS, feels good! I think thats part of human's survival instinct that reminds ourselves that says''it's not the end of the world, buddy''. Maybe thats why some people are ''dramatic'. Make sense ? Don't know.


Yes, grief and weep can remind a person of being alive, maybe that is what I need to remind myself of.
Some tell me I'm heartless, I tell them I just look on the bright side of everything.. until it got too dark just now ... ha ha curious?

Happy 21st Birthday Nikkolaaai

Because Ive got work tomorrow, I won't be able to post it sharp at 12am (23rdMarch2009) malaysia time, so ..here it is ..early arrival!
HAhaha not to worry ..this isn't your only present :)
I just got back from work ..and I did this thing until now (4.00am) and ive got to wake up at 9.00am to prepare for work tomorrow! ..I know ..the amount of sleeplessness you go through makes mine look like peanutbutter n jam .. but its the effort !! ..haha besides, it's my first time using movie maker, guess I did considerably well ! ..

Happy 21sr Birthday Nicholas Quek Way Wern!!
from cow, all da way from a distance.
BEsto besto Besto FrienD FoRevaR!!!!!

P/s I like the pic where you are holding your leg, and the song sings ''no doubt in my mind where you belong'' HAHAh!! ..stuff that foot in your head!

Her Expiry Date: January 2014

We finally decided to buy our flight tickets home.
When I was done with my booking, i went over to my friends room to guide her with the details.
I reckoned it would be faster if i typed everything for her. So we went through one by one:
"whats your name" .... "Jessica Chin pui yee"
"Your Passport number" .... "A xxxxxxxx"
"your date of birth?" ....."bla bla bla (i forgot)"

"Expiry date?" ... .. . ... .. ...~she gives me the most confused tilted-to-the-left face ever~ (o.O) ..and said ..."who? me ?" ...........

*silence*

"Of course it's you ..I cant be asking the expiry date of the passport, can I?"

lol .. don't belittle her though , she completed her ACCA papers and is now taking her masters degree! ..
HAHAH XD
Thats all Folks!
p/s: ..I expire in april 2030 ..what about u ..?

Finally! Some Spice!

I was so focused in my assignment that I did not smell it coming.

My room phone rang, "Look outside the window!!"

Next moment, I dashed outta my room and took the elevator down, as u already know if you have read the 'exterminator post', it's a freakin grandfather metal box.

THERE WAS A FIRE INCIDENT IN ONE OF THE HALL NEXT TO MY BLOCK.

Look at the smoke in the air!

Is there a Char-coaled body in the fire truck???

Oh those people who cant mind their own business! Including myself of course he he It was one of those units, smoke coming out of the kitchen.

Hey people! Don't you know you shouldnt stand so near? what if a ball of fire suddenly fall out?Stay Behind me! Noobs!

Birds-eye-View from my room. There was actually three firetrucks. One Left.

The conclusion was, I think, someone left a pot on the kitchen electrical stove and it probably exploded (just to exaggerate). The air smelled like burnt plastic. It was very smoky though. This is what i saw our hero (fireman) do:

Ran up 4 flights of stairs, barged into the unit, open the window and let the smoke out! Cheers and applause!! weeeeeeee!!
It takes three firetrucks, no kidding! I'm sure it's for good intentions, just in case, u know? :)I was kiddin about the char-coaled body, just to create some suspence, for myself.

Ahh only a burnt pot and smoky air and loads of firetrucks. Nothing big to go on the newspaper, only worth me blogging.

Lets give me something to blog about.

It's already February going into March. Just few months ago, it was all about coping with life here and everything that came along the way. Now I look forward to everyday as it draws nearer to july/august. The thought of getting on the plane to fly home, it's so comforting! I can already visualise the food in front of me, the place i'm going to go, faces i'm going to see. There's even a mental things-to-do-list.
Most of all, Mount Kinabalu!
Im planning a trip there to conquer the peak! As glamourous as Ive put it, it is really just 4000 ft above sea level. To some people, it's a stroll in the park. But i know it's gonna be tough anyways! oh Yea and FUN! ..it's 4Days 3nights and the 3rd night would be spent at an awesome beach spot, chalets chalets!

Here's the thing, if you're interested or adventurous enough, let me know, and we'll be one big happy climbing group! ..Mount kinabalu is just the first! ..hahah we'll see where we go from there.
It should be around mid august. Ask me for more details =)

snOw!!

HAhah finally we decided to come out of our cocoon to roll up some ball.
And thats the biggest snowman we can manage.

Meet Kush Kush!

How funny, I have to make snowball for her to throw at me!

The next second after this was taken, the phone was mashed with snow. . .just kiddin . .

That surprised look is because we manage to made snow ball from that thin snow!

She insisted on taking another pic.

I wasn't dreaming of a white chinese new year.

Ooh yea this is our hall compound, where we stay! Nice isn't it :)

The taste of CNY

.."what are you lookin at! this is my salvation .."

Loong Kee's Brand of Dried Chicken Meat

Delivered all the way from malaysia, saves every chinese soul

Unknown Source defines the taboo

You know you're getting fat when one day, you bend over to feel an unfamiliar sensation obstructing your movement, like a barrier that stops you from being flexible, even tying shoelaces takes your breathe away, and yes, like a float around your centre of gravity. LOL
The source refused to be named. (sorry I exaggerated =D)
But it's not me, yet. Hopefully never.

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I want to be home! .....=(

2009 ?

Every year seem to pass faster than the preceding year. And there is these three celebration that everyone(at least every chinese) looks forward to for the approaching year. Christmas, New Year, and the Chinese New Year. For me, it's been done every single year ever since I can remember my life, so accustomed to it that it becomes like some sort of ritual that I have to go through to confirm that the year behind me is really behind me.
The Chinese New Year celebration that lasts for 15 days is like a Check Point, with all the ear-deafening fireworks, gambling everyday without fail, widening your waistline, visiting friends and family, and of course, the red packet. Then you know the new year has truly arrived, time to really set your resolution straight, study hard, work smart, whichever.
Now I feel like something is missing. No shining shimmering red decorations, no chinese dedications, no lion dance, no fireworks. It is the time of the year, yet ....!
You can also say its a form of replenishment of energy, like clicking on the 'refresh' button, start anew, one better than the previous.
oh well, non of that is happening. Like I'm dragging 2008 in 2009, if that means anything.

**Happy Prosperous Chinese New Year Everyone.**
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I guess it was too much to hope for ...

Lol, eventually they charged me for the piano, down to every penny.
Odviously, Duh! Is it me or does anyone look for unexpected positive turns of event?
My piano is great!

*Happy Birthday to Serene Chee* - Welcome to the Club of Twenties
You're always in my tart.
Whenever I am pushing my life cart.
Just when my life is about to halt,
You boost my morale in just a fart.
Lol totally random.
Oo I should be a poem writer, what do you call a poem writer ? Poemist ? Poeism ?

Has Heaven opened its eyes on me ?

I must be really really optimistic to arrive at this conclusion.

You see, last thursday I purchased a digital piano online, which has cost me, to be exact, £285.85.

Thats helluva money to me. I covered a total cost of £12o pounds from that week's pay from work, including a transaction error that my uni has made, to my convenience, where i was paid twice the amount of my wages for working as a student ambassador. *You see i've been lucky*.

The rest of the cost would be beared by my bank account, which is my mom's money, where she happily agreed and encouraged,saying - ''Of course you can! If you don't have enough money i can still send you some" Of course i cant ask for more mom, i already feel guilty enough indulging myself with all these past-time entertainment. But,*Phew*!

Here comes, I submited the wrong delivery address while making the purchase. To cut it short, It didnt match my debit card delivery address. Which made the whole delivery go into a pending status. Cant dispatch.

Details : on the day of purchased, in my online bank account status, it show Account balance £4oo, with available balance £115. This piece of info means that a FUTURE charge will be incurred when everything go through, but not deducted from your account yet, you still have those cash. This was because of the mismatch of address I provided.

So now everything is cleared, they verified my card, verified my address. And piano has been dispatched today, with estimated arrival time from 8am - 5pm the next day.

Curious, I checked my account online again, this time :

Account balance 400£ ...available balance £400 ...o.O ??? "@.@ ???

What ?! hold on ..with all my hopes and dreams, could it be possible that they voided my first payment, and then delivered the piano without charging me ?

Because from what i understand, if there would be an incurring future charge, they would reduce the amount to show the balance at ''available balance'', which apparently isn't the case now.

Free digital piano ?

This is where all of you come to play, Pray for me! ..and get 1 pound each! ..if it's really free XD

A series of fortunate event ? First a double pay from the uni, then a free piano ?..

I must not be thinking too much ...

But being optimistic is really fun, you've got nothing to lose, and everything to gain.

PRAY!!

p/s Thanks mom! Best christmas gift eva! ..or chinese new year .. whichever =)

Everyone has a story

I took the time to look back into myself, to comtemplate, how eventually I became who I am today, through all sorts of things that has happened in my life. All sorts. I'm not even sure where I should start.
For starters, one day in 2002, i was in school, in the class, we had a free period, the whole class went berserk. We were throwing things around, boys vs girls, I remembered clearly. Crushed unused papers mostly. While I was at it, it didn't occur to me at all the following event can possibly happen. I threw this ball of paper at one of the girl (i guess it kind of hurt), and it hit her face. She was angry, mad, furious. She didn't scream or anything, just ignored me. And that, people, has had a devastating effect on me. Filled with guilt, feels like a permanent butterfly in the stomach, out of guilt. I tried to apologize, but odviously not the right time at that moment. I felt horrible that day, really really awful, I havent felt that way before. On the way home, in the bus, I kept thinking, what should I do, what should I say to her, how do I reach her to apologize, and suddenly a stream of tears came running down as I stare out the window of a setting sun. The wind generated by the speed of the bus blows the tears off my face, but it keeps coming. Sounds dramatic, but it was like that. The next thing was what I was good at, wasn't taught how to do it, to hide my feelings, put on a mask.
I don't like sympathies. Back home, it was like every other day, like I was impervious to any emotion at all. But my churning stomach wasn't lying to me. I wrote a foot long email to her, 1st day, no respond, 2nd day I wrote another, no respond, 3rd day I wrote again, she replied, I was given the green flag. The relieve was an indescribable feeling. The 3 days was hell thats for sure.
Thats just one, but it played a role in my life. I realised how friends are really important to me, well i'm sure to anyone. Since then I started to think before I do/say anything. Everything.
Eventually as I get by, I met people whom Ive learnt alot from. Some comes and goes, some remains your friends, some became friends you know you can be yourself at anytime, where being around them is like being in a sphere that has it's own dimension, a genuine dimension, and you don't care whats outside the sphere anymore.

Back in Malaysia, friends that I hang out with are the friends I can be myself around them.
Does it mean I am not myself when I'm around some people, not really. There are just certain characteristics you don't show. I honestly still cant figure out the element. Maybe just an uncomfortable feeling, but that means everything doesnt it. However, every relationship progresses, thats for sure, a not-so-close friend can always be your true friend once both parties develop interest in doing so. It only takes time. How much time do we have?
Scenario : One fine evening you're free, you have a choice between going out with your best friends, like every other day, which should already bore you but in fact not even a bit, And someone whom you're not so close with, who wants to hangout with you, which would you opt for? I would always go for the first choice. The choice that i choose will give a bad impression to the other person. So how should one tackle this problem. I don't know.
I like to do things when I feel like doing, at my own leisure, not obliged to anyone, anything, anytime. Having typed this out, I see that I'm a selfish person (we are by our human instincts?), which I already know long ago, and has made some contribution to change. Sort of only to people i prioritize, which sucks, because we only have so much time, and cant have every relationship fit into it.
Id like to quote ale,

I wish I could just make time every year, just one day per person, to meet up with the people who meant something to me. Yet relationships are funny things. Getting closer to someone usually means getting even closer. The more you spend time with them, the more time you need to spend and it becomes a heavy investment. It's only natural that you have to build on to maintain a relationship.
Maybe it's time to accept that some people need to stay in the past. Or maybe both parties just have to acknowledge that there's a cap to their friendship. That there's only so much time we have, and that time is reserved for people you prioritize as more important.

My life has made me a clingy person. If you're my good friend, you're not going anywhere.
This is to you.