Thoughts and foreign feelings

Thoughts can really amplify a situation. Like an expanding spiral digging downwards and outwards not knowing when it will stop. Happy thoughts? I don't mind.

Emotional and sad thoughts on the other hand, are not easy to control. It burdens the brain and put you in a state of grief to no end. Here on, you seek consolation, if there's any at all, by spilling your heart out to whoever listening. Then all you need to hear is, "it's gonna be alright" and your spiral slowly comes to a halt.

I never wanted to look weak. In the past, if there were any occasions that were bad enough to get my thoughts spun, I will dwell on it no doubt, but then recuperate from it faster than how it happened.
Slowly as I grow older, the dwellings became less and less. If there are any complications, deal with it practically, rather than crying out loud on why did it happen. Maybe because I feel contented and rather look at things in a simpler way, think less complicatedly, and pursue no drama. Maybe thats part of being an adult, you become stoner by day.

I THINK there exist some people who would deliberately put themself in the emotional state of grief. I'm not sure if its true, but I think a different feeling exists simultaneously while you feel your heart clench tightly because of sadness. I know about the crying nerve related to the laughing nerve that both serves to alleviate your stress level, but this is different. That foreign feeling, as far as I remember, feels like a sense of relieve, threading that sadness out of your heart. That PROCESS, feels good! I think thats part of human's survival instinct that reminds ourselves that says''it's not the end of the world, buddy''. Maybe thats why some people are ''dramatic'. Make sense ? Don't know.


Yes, grief and weep can remind a person of being alive, maybe that is what I need to remind myself of.
Some tell me I'm heartless, I tell them I just look on the bright side of everything.. until it got too dark just now ... ha ha curious?