Thoughts and foreign feelings

Thoughts can really amplify a situation. Like an expanding spiral digging downwards and outwards not knowing when it will stop. Happy thoughts? I don't mind.

Emotional and sad thoughts on the other hand, are not easy to control. It burdens the brain and put you in a state of grief to no end. Here on, you seek consolation, if there's any at all, by spilling your heart out to whoever listening. Then all you need to hear is, "it's gonna be alright" and your spiral slowly comes to a halt.

I never wanted to look weak. In the past, if there were any occasions that were bad enough to get my thoughts spun, I will dwell on it no doubt, but then recuperate from it faster than how it happened.
Slowly as I grow older, the dwellings became less and less. If there are any complications, deal with it practically, rather than crying out loud on why did it happen. Maybe because I feel contented and rather look at things in a simpler way, think less complicatedly, and pursue no drama. Maybe thats part of being an adult, you become stoner by day.

I THINK there exist some people who would deliberately put themself in the emotional state of grief. I'm not sure if its true, but I think a different feeling exists simultaneously while you feel your heart clench tightly because of sadness. I know about the crying nerve related to the laughing nerve that both serves to alleviate your stress level, but this is different. That foreign feeling, as far as I remember, feels like a sense of relieve, threading that sadness out of your heart. That PROCESS, feels good! I think thats part of human's survival instinct that reminds ourselves that says''it's not the end of the world, buddy''. Maybe thats why some people are ''dramatic'. Make sense ? Don't know.


Yes, grief and weep can remind a person of being alive, maybe that is what I need to remind myself of.
Some tell me I'm heartless, I tell them I just look on the bright side of everything.. until it got too dark just now ... ha ha curious?

Happy 21st Birthday Nikkolaaai

Because Ive got work tomorrow, I won't be able to post it sharp at 12am (23rdMarch2009) malaysia time, so ..here it is ..early arrival!
HAhaha not to worry ..this isn't your only present :)
I just got back from work ..and I did this thing until now (4.00am) and ive got to wake up at 9.00am to prepare for work tomorrow! ..I know ..the amount of sleeplessness you go through makes mine look like peanutbutter n jam .. but its the effort !! ..haha besides, it's my first time using movie maker, guess I did considerably well ! ..

Happy 21sr Birthday Nicholas Quek Way Wern!!
from cow, all da way from a distance.
BEsto besto Besto FrienD FoRevaR!!!!!

P/s I like the pic where you are holding your leg, and the song sings ''no doubt in my mind where you belong'' HAHAh!! ..stuff that foot in your head!

Her Expiry Date: January 2014

We finally decided to buy our flight tickets home.
When I was done with my booking, i went over to my friends room to guide her with the details.
I reckoned it would be faster if i typed everything for her. So we went through one by one:
"whats your name" .... "Jessica Chin pui yee"
"Your Passport number" .... "A xxxxxxxx"
"your date of birth?" ....."bla bla bla (i forgot)"

"Expiry date?" ... .. . ... .. ...~she gives me the most confused tilted-to-the-left face ever~ (o.O) ..and said ..."who? me ?" ...........

*silence*

"Of course it's you ..I cant be asking the expiry date of the passport, can I?"

lol .. don't belittle her though , she completed her ACCA papers and is now taking her masters degree! ..
HAHAH XD
Thats all Folks!
p/s: ..I expire in april 2030 ..what about u ..?