The taste of CNY

.."what are you lookin at! this is my salvation .."

Loong Kee's Brand of Dried Chicken Meat

Delivered all the way from malaysia, saves every chinese soul

Unknown Source defines the taboo

You know you're getting fat when one day, you bend over to feel an unfamiliar sensation obstructing your movement, like a barrier that stops you from being flexible, even tying shoelaces takes your breathe away, and yes, like a float around your centre of gravity. LOL
The source refused to be named. (sorry I exaggerated =D)
But it's not me, yet. Hopefully never.

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I want to be home! .....=(

2009 ?

Every year seem to pass faster than the preceding year. And there is these three celebration that everyone(at least every chinese) looks forward to for the approaching year. Christmas, New Year, and the Chinese New Year. For me, it's been done every single year ever since I can remember my life, so accustomed to it that it becomes like some sort of ritual that I have to go through to confirm that the year behind me is really behind me.
The Chinese New Year celebration that lasts for 15 days is like a Check Point, with all the ear-deafening fireworks, gambling everyday without fail, widening your waistline, visiting friends and family, and of course, the red packet. Then you know the new year has truly arrived, time to really set your resolution straight, study hard, work smart, whichever.
Now I feel like something is missing. No shining shimmering red decorations, no chinese dedications, no lion dance, no fireworks. It is the time of the year, yet ....!
You can also say its a form of replenishment of energy, like clicking on the 'refresh' button, start anew, one better than the previous.
oh well, non of that is happening. Like I'm dragging 2008 in 2009, if that means anything.

**Happy Prosperous Chinese New Year Everyone.**
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I guess it was too much to hope for ...

Lol, eventually they charged me for the piano, down to every penny.
Odviously, Duh! Is it me or does anyone look for unexpected positive turns of event?
My piano is great!

*Happy Birthday to Serene Chee* - Welcome to the Club of Twenties
You're always in my tart.
Whenever I am pushing my life cart.
Just when my life is about to halt,
You boost my morale in just a fart.
Lol totally random.
Oo I should be a poem writer, what do you call a poem writer ? Poemist ? Poeism ?

Has Heaven opened its eyes on me ?

I must be really really optimistic to arrive at this conclusion.

You see, last thursday I purchased a digital piano online, which has cost me, to be exact, £285.85.

Thats helluva money to me. I covered a total cost of £12o pounds from that week's pay from work, including a transaction error that my uni has made, to my convenience, where i was paid twice the amount of my wages for working as a student ambassador. *You see i've been lucky*.

The rest of the cost would be beared by my bank account, which is my mom's money, where she happily agreed and encouraged,saying - ''Of course you can! If you don't have enough money i can still send you some" Of course i cant ask for more mom, i already feel guilty enough indulging myself with all these past-time entertainment. But,*Phew*!

Here comes, I submited the wrong delivery address while making the purchase. To cut it short, It didnt match my debit card delivery address. Which made the whole delivery go into a pending status. Cant dispatch.

Details : on the day of purchased, in my online bank account status, it show Account balance £4oo, with available balance £115. This piece of info means that a FUTURE charge will be incurred when everything go through, but not deducted from your account yet, you still have those cash. This was because of the mismatch of address I provided.

So now everything is cleared, they verified my card, verified my address. And piano has been dispatched today, with estimated arrival time from 8am - 5pm the next day.

Curious, I checked my account online again, this time :

Account balance 400£ ...available balance £400 ...o.O ??? "@.@ ???

What ?! hold on ..with all my hopes and dreams, could it be possible that they voided my first payment, and then delivered the piano without charging me ?

Because from what i understand, if there would be an incurring future charge, they would reduce the amount to show the balance at ''available balance'', which apparently isn't the case now.

Free digital piano ?

This is where all of you come to play, Pray for me! ..and get 1 pound each! ..if it's really free XD

A series of fortunate event ? First a double pay from the uni, then a free piano ?..

I must not be thinking too much ...

But being optimistic is really fun, you've got nothing to lose, and everything to gain.

PRAY!!

p/s Thanks mom! Best christmas gift eva! ..or chinese new year .. whichever =)

Everyone has a story

I took the time to look back into myself, to comtemplate, how eventually I became who I am today, through all sorts of things that has happened in my life. All sorts. I'm not even sure where I should start.
For starters, one day in 2002, i was in school, in the class, we had a free period, the whole class went berserk. We were throwing things around, boys vs girls, I remembered clearly. Crushed unused papers mostly. While I was at it, it didn't occur to me at all the following event can possibly happen. I threw this ball of paper at one of the girl (i guess it kind of hurt), and it hit her face. She was angry, mad, furious. She didn't scream or anything, just ignored me. And that, people, has had a devastating effect on me. Filled with guilt, feels like a permanent butterfly in the stomach, out of guilt. I tried to apologize, but odviously not the right time at that moment. I felt horrible that day, really really awful, I havent felt that way before. On the way home, in the bus, I kept thinking, what should I do, what should I say to her, how do I reach her to apologize, and suddenly a stream of tears came running down as I stare out the window of a setting sun. The wind generated by the speed of the bus blows the tears off my face, but it keeps coming. Sounds dramatic, but it was like that. The next thing was what I was good at, wasn't taught how to do it, to hide my feelings, put on a mask.
I don't like sympathies. Back home, it was like every other day, like I was impervious to any emotion at all. But my churning stomach wasn't lying to me. I wrote a foot long email to her, 1st day, no respond, 2nd day I wrote another, no respond, 3rd day I wrote again, she replied, I was given the green flag. The relieve was an indescribable feeling. The 3 days was hell thats for sure.
Thats just one, but it played a role in my life. I realised how friends are really important to me, well i'm sure to anyone. Since then I started to think before I do/say anything. Everything.
Eventually as I get by, I met people whom Ive learnt alot from. Some comes and goes, some remains your friends, some became friends you know you can be yourself at anytime, where being around them is like being in a sphere that has it's own dimension, a genuine dimension, and you don't care whats outside the sphere anymore.

Back in Malaysia, friends that I hang out with are the friends I can be myself around them.
Does it mean I am not myself when I'm around some people, not really. There are just certain characteristics you don't show. I honestly still cant figure out the element. Maybe just an uncomfortable feeling, but that means everything doesnt it. However, every relationship progresses, thats for sure, a not-so-close friend can always be your true friend once both parties develop interest in doing so. It only takes time. How much time do we have?
Scenario : One fine evening you're free, you have a choice between going out with your best friends, like every other day, which should already bore you but in fact not even a bit, And someone whom you're not so close with, who wants to hangout with you, which would you opt for? I would always go for the first choice. The choice that i choose will give a bad impression to the other person. So how should one tackle this problem. I don't know.
I like to do things when I feel like doing, at my own leisure, not obliged to anyone, anything, anytime. Having typed this out, I see that I'm a selfish person (we are by our human instincts?), which I already know long ago, and has made some contribution to change. Sort of only to people i prioritize, which sucks, because we only have so much time, and cant have every relationship fit into it.
Id like to quote ale,

I wish I could just make time every year, just one day per person, to meet up with the people who meant something to me. Yet relationships are funny things. Getting closer to someone usually means getting even closer. The more you spend time with them, the more time you need to spend and it becomes a heavy investment. It's only natural that you have to build on to maintain a relationship.
Maybe it's time to accept that some people need to stay in the past. Or maybe both parties just have to acknowledge that there's a cap to their friendship. That there's only so much time we have, and that time is reserved for people you prioritize as more important.

My life has made me a clingy person. If you're my good friend, you're not going anywhere.
This is to you.